Life update after years

Hey...

It's been a long time you guys... It's been a long time since my last entry. There isn't much going on really... right now but a lot of things happened. Things that I wasn't able to write here because honestly.. I forgot I had this blog.

As I read my previous postings, I realized how far I am now compared to where I am before. I am in my last year of college by the way. I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since I last opened this blog and like I've said huge and dramatic events in my life. I have a boyfriend now and we've been together for more than a year. We've been through ups and downs and truth be told? The challenges that we've came to was one of the lowest point of my life. I'm not gonna get into details of it all but I promise I will.... on my next entry I guess.

but today.. or should I say tonight's blog is somewhat related to what I have mentioned above.
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How do you forgive and how do you forget. Those are the questions that I keep repeating. It's really difficult to put on words the things that I've been feeling but all I know is I am not yet over it. I am still hurt... everyday I still live with the misery. I still live with my insecurities the question why I wasn't enough and what did I do wrong? There is not a day that I did not check her profile... comparing myself to her and all that. Am I angry? I don't think so. Thinking about it know I realized I have never felt angry about it but rather I felt devastated, disappointed and betrayed and maybe that is the hardest part... that I wasn't angered at all and I'd rather be angered than be feeling all this. God knows how badly I want to forgive and forget about everything that happened.

When Should You be in a Relationship?

May exact na time o edad ba? Sa tingin ko naman wala, pero I think everybody needs a criteria just so we can avoid making mistakes.

Disclaimer: These are my personal opinions. This is how I think right now. I've never been into a relationship, so this is from a point of view of an NBSB.

For me, may dalawang pinaka importanteng bagay, among others, na dapat iconsider sa tuwing papasok ka sa isang relationship.

Una, Love and pangalawa, Maturity,

Love, kasi bakit ka naman papasok sa isang relationship diba kung hindi mo mahal yung isang tao?
Maturity, kasi sa tingin ko hindi enough na mahal nyo LANG ang isa't isa. Kasi ang relationship naman hindi solely pinapatakbo ng love yan.

Syempre dadaan kayo sa mga pagsubok, awayan, tampohan at iba pa. You need to understand each other every time na may pinagdadaanan kayo and you also need to keep up with each other's emotion and moods.

Magagawa mo lang ang bagay na yun kung matured kana. Yung hindi yung sarili mo lang yung iniisip mo, kasi if you are in a relationship, DALAWA na kayo. Sa bawat disiyon ng isa apektado ang isa.

Another this is, priority, You need to know your priorities. Para sa akin anman hindi niyo kailangan na iprioritize parati ang isa't isa. Kasi may mga panahon na you need to choose between him/her. you studies/work, friends, family and yourself. Let me just say that you don't have to choose him/her every single time but you have to at least  explain the reasons behind your decision and if that person truly loves you? she/he'll understand.


I am writing this to emphasize LOVE and MATURITY in a relationship and to encourage everyone not to enter into a relationship if you are not ready. You might just end up ruining each other, and that'd be tragic.


Big deal kasi sa akin ang pagpasok sa isang relationship, para sa akin kasi hindi ito isang bagay na ginagawang trial and error nalang ng basta basta na lang. Kaya sometimes hindi ko maintindinhan kung bakit ang dali lang para sa ibang tao na makipagrelasyon at makipaghiwalay.

I firmly believe that your relationship's goal is to spend the rest of your life with that someone. Kasi, If marriage is not your goal then why are you in a relationship? You are just wasting your time and effort among other things.

Dear No One

For the past days, I noticed how your attitude and treatment with me changed. It feels like I am not with the same person. I don't want to assume anything, but I am very sensitive and vulnerable when it comes to matters like this. I easily get bothered and for the past days it's giving me sleepless nights.

I'm not even sure if I'd be relieved if you speak straight up to me, I don't know what my reaction would be or how I will handle it. But one thing for sure, I don't want to ruin my friendship with you or anyone. You are my friend and I value you just as I value everyone in our class.

I don't know why you are doing this but I'd like to think that you are just going through somethings and you need someone to comfort you. I'd like to think that you just feel safe whenever you're with me.

                                                                                                                           -Yours Truly

It's been a while since my last post. So I've decided to share my latest drawing. Hope you like it and comment your suggestions.! XOXO

Resources

Layout > Add Gadget > Add Java/Html > Copy this code> Paste on content > Save

Code: <a data-flickr-embed="true" href="Link of your profile"><img alt="dddd" height="500" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjsKaVseTHn0S7C5yrJ7Q9j2UJd3eNDWx0XB0BBKcKbGRoq7hLLP-NxvzsLv_m-2Qqo7JVqNTcXjTEjgCFv_9GsSF5B5JeNMaK3-oZXz1w8PJT3_gGHHOI40Ib1xMU1FHvED9yFXWgmTY/s1600/22222.png" width="300" / /></a><script async="" charset="utf-8" src="//embedr.flickr.com/assets/

WIP and the Final results

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How to add a divider

Here's another tutorial for you and I created a dividers btw, you can choose the divider you want and copy the corresponding code.

So to start, open Layout and look for the footer-1 and click on: add a gadget.

a new window would open and type this code to the content you can add a title but its optional and I suggest that you don't.

<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">

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Note that you can drag this code from the layout to anywhere on the page that you wanted to put this on.
Another note: Right click is disabled, highlight the code and CTRL+C.